for all I have in Jesus?  Because I find Him and His imputed worthiness unsatisfying.  I want MORE than what He offers me.  I want better circumstances, wannabe a better follower of Him, wannabe more fruitful with the lost, wannabe grateful for all I have in Him.  Whyzat?  Because I don’t like me just as…

I mean, majorly, hopelessly, strung out.  I’ve been driving a rental car for the past two weeks, and now I’m back in my cool, fast Passat, with 18″ wheels, and performance tires, that handles awesomely.  Every time I get in it, I feel cool.  Especially when I step on the accelerator and the VR6 roars,…

I would never have considered myself a perfectionist, because I’ve lived in denial of the real me most of my life, but it’s clear in analyzing my life, analyzing why I do what I do, that I’ve never been a contented person, contented follower of Jesus. I think down deep, I’ve always wanted more, better.…

will provide more happiness. Or even being a better Dave, will provide more happiness. ShepherdDave’s understanding of how to be a better Dave, involves striving to believe better, do better, obey better, and enjoy better — others and himself. Problem is, there is no way ShepherdDave can improve himself ENOUGH to satisfy the harsh, perfectionistic…

that if flows downhill to the failures who know they are failures, so they have a healthy-indifference to their failures and successes, because Jesus is everything to them, and everything else is nothing — including any interest in critiquing/judging others. Thank You for dragging me down this pathway of healing, and that I’m not-yet healed,…

Ministry is wearisome.  Excellence is wearisome.  Everything is wearisome on Planet Earth.  For ShepherdDave.  Whyzat?  Because achievement is a way of proving myself worthy.  Because Jesus and His imputed worthiness is unsatisfying to me when I’m ShepherdDave.  But I live in denial of why I strive for excellence in all things, imaging myself doing good,…

There is no middle ground in my life.  When I’m DumbSheepDave, I’m an enjoyer of others, myself, just a we are, and an enjoyer of Jesus, and His genius plan for everyone, just as it is.  The sovereignty of Jesus is overwhelming.  I ooze with patience.  Blissful. When I’m ShepherdDave, I’m looking for perfection in…

Just a little bit more.  How much frugality is enough?  Just a little bit more.  How much somebodiness is enough?  Just a little bit more.  How much savings is enough?  Just a little bit more.  How much obedience is enough?  Just a little bit more.  How much sports-team righteousness is enough?  Just a little bit…

this past week, this song that I heard for the first time Wednesday, really resonated with me. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=korFkTbE6HI But the problem with songs about Heaven, is that they don’t talk about having a TASTE of Heaven right now, today, through fresh conviction of sin, especially the sin of independence/confidence-I-know-what’s-best.  LIFE is possible today, but we…

in the values of the Upside-down Kingdom of Jesus – other-worldly humility and other-worldly love?  How does any parent raise humble, loving kids? The parent needs a contagious humility and love, because the conscience is reached through humility and love.  The parent who reaches a child’s conscience, is loving and humble ENOUGH to be the…