dumb sheep dave

Promoting Jesus Dependency

  • Wait, Jesus just showed me

    that the biggest reason I’m not in awe of Him, is that I desperately wannabe in awe of me.  Turns out I’m not in awe of human excellence in others, but jealous/envious of their excellence.  I’m way-more  competitive than I ever realized.  Eeeuuww, I’m even worse than I thought.  Heavy yoke, being more self-aware. But. …

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  • Answered prayers for my bride.

    Surgery went great, she walked several times yesterday, and her recovery is going so well they plan to send her home this afternoon.  Janet has been overwhelmed with gratitude for the prayers of many folks.  She didn’t freak out going into the hospital yesterday morning, or in the prep for her surgery.  I can’t begin…

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  • ShepherdDave is only thankful

    for the easy.  If that.  Because he’s wise in his own eyes, leans on his own understanding, about what’s thankable and what’s not, what’s best for himself and others. DumbSheepDave however, is thankful for the harrrd, unsure about being thankful for the easy, because he’s unsure what’s best for himself or others, but he knows…

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  • Please pray for my bride tonight,

    and tomorrow at 7am Eastern time when she goes under the knife for a hip replacement.  Routine surgery, but she’s traumatized by hospitals since childhood from seeing her daddy in the hospital after a heart attack at age 39, with tubes and wires coming out of him.  Janet’s concerned she won’t sleep tonight.  She needs…

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  • Financial update on GospelFriendships.

    As of 11/12 we are running a $12.5k deficit, on a $57k total budget of $33k salary, plus overhead and ministry expenses, and it’s hard to know how we’ll end the year, but if forced to guess, I’d guess a $5k deficit.  In past December’s a few supporters have given extra, and a few non-supporters…

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  • Woe to me, for I love somebodiness,

    others’ and my own.  I love being admired, even envied, and I especially love others in awe of me, worshiping me, and my performance/achievements.  Jesus had the harshest things to say about people like ShepherdDave, who claim to be God-followers, but are frauds.  Thankfully, whenever the Spirit convicts me of my heinous sin, I’m freshly…

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  • This world is too much my home.

    I’m too-easily wowed by human excellence/somebodiness.  This-worldliness.  I need to be wowed by an Other-worldly.  By Other-worldliness.  But alas, I’m powerless to change myself.  I need to be rescued from Above.  HELP, JESUS!  Send Your Spirit and make ShepherdDave freshly sane again. –DumbSheepDave, more sane – other-wordly, sometimes, wondering if the pre-believers around him are…

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  • I need to be wowed by Jesus,

    not humans, not this-worldliness, not humans who believe, not humans who believe and excel.  Jesus.  Everyone else but Jesus, weirds me.  Not their fault.  My problem.  My woundedness from childhood.  TV, Facebook, film, periodicals, socializing, email, all weird me.  This-worldliness. I do best when I’m freshly wowed by Jesus.  Love others best.  Love myself best. …

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  • If people were awed by Jesus

    why aren’t people awed by the Jesus in me?  Because there is so little of Him in me, and so much of me in me?  So much Dave-agenda, Dave-dependency, and so little Jesus-dependency?  So much self-confidence, so little confidence in Jesus and His genius plan for my life, and others’ lives?  So much Jesus-bless-my-agenda praying? …

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  • When I’m bored with Jesus,

    I’m a boring Christian, awed by Payton Manning, awed by human somebodiness, awed by the excellence of others — and my own, outside and inside the Church, and there is no contagious Jesus in me.   ShepherdDave.  WorldlyDave.  BoringDave. But when the Spirit freshly convicts me of the sin of worldliness/pride/independence, I’m only awed by Jesus,…

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