dumb sheep dave

Promoting Jesus Dependency

  • I have a new identity.

    Since Saturday.  WorthlessDave.  I really am worthless.  That’s right.  Worthless.  I’ve been unconsciously trying all my life to be successful, worthy, failure-avoidant, in order to PROVE my worthiness.  In ministry, and in all of life.  But all the things that have made me feel worthy, are only according to HUMAN standards.  All my worthiness is…

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  • Only the humble can love well.

    Even love their enemies.  The proud are conditional lovers, and never love their enemies, only the like-minded, and even the like-minded are loved conditionally, when they perform up to expectations.  The proud are competitors, rejectors, critics, judges, while the humble are enjoyers of others, just as they are.  What’s missing in the USA today, including…

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  • Worldliness is…

    being in awe of human excellence, achievement, somebodiness, worshiping the created instead of the Creator, and ShepherdDave is just as worldly as any secular, but I imagine myself worshiping only Jesus.  Self-deception.  Hypocrisy.  Striving for excellence, competence, togetherness, coolness.  Competing with other somebodies for human worship.  Confident-I-know-what’s-best — what will make me happy.  Modern-day Pharisee,…

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  • How can I be more Jesus-dependent?

    Please, tell me a book I can read, or article, or lecture, or sermon, or seminar, or discipline.  Anything.  I’ve had tastes of Jesus-dependency and I want MORE.  NOTHING compares with it.  I want MORE of me asking and thanking You about everything.  I want MORE curiosity and expectancy to see what You will do…

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  • ShepherdDave worships somebodies.

    Is in awe of somebodies.  Interested  in their lives.  What makes them tick.  Because ShepherdDave is a somebody wannabe.  Competitive.  Worldly.  Striving for excellence in ministry and in all of life.  Not content with his accomplishments, possessions.  Not content with himself, wanting to be better, do better, believe better.  Not content with Jesus.  Bottomless pit…

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  • HELP, I want to see Jesus,

    behind everything and everyone.  So I’ll be an enjoyer of everything and everyone, instead of being judge of all, noting strengths and weaknesses, so I can feel superior in some way.  If I don’t see SovereignJesus behind everyone, I will sit in judgment of them.  Whyzat?  I’m a pathetically insecure, immature, neurotic, deluded proving addict,…

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  • When I’m impatient,

    I never believe in Jesus’ sovereignty.  Or when I’m fearful.  Or discouraged.  I don’t believe it’s UP TO HIM.  It’s up to ME.  Like the Pharisees, I live in denial of how much I have to lose, by giving up everything in my life to follow Him, especially the righteousness/reputation/somebodiness I’ve worked so hard to achieve.  I’m unwilling to…

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  • How can I enjoy the real me,

    just as I am, the great example of a bad example of a Jesus-follower?   I’m not a humble, meek, childlike, Jesus-dependent who is clueless-he-knows-what’s-best for himself and others, so he’s enjoying others, self, Jesus, and His genius plan for every detail of our lives.  Why do I struggle to enjoy the real me?  Why do…

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  • EVERYthing in my life

    is designed to grow me more Jesus-dependent/Jesus-content/Jesus-humble, so I’m less and less confident-I-know-what’s-best for me, our nation, other nations, the Kingdom.  Especially in the frustrating political arena.  I used to think my car was the main training tool for this, but now I see that EVERY area of my life has been carefully crafted by…

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  • “It’s not a test, Dave.”

    Not about your performance.  Not a competition.  Not about you vs. them.  It’s about Jesus being behind everyone and everything. I find myself being wonderfully helped, repeating those five words, “It’s not a test, Dave,” over and over, as I drive my car.  Hopefully the experience will spread to other areas of my life, because…

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