causing me to feel ALONE and in CHARGE of my life. The news is not Jesus-centric, but human-wisdom-centric, so the news is dangerous to my Jesus-dependency, my happiness. The news undermines the peace and joy that OUGHTABE mine in Jesus. So I can only take news in small doses, together with LARGE doses of being…

but so WHAT? I am not MY problem, but Jesus’ problem. I’m not in charge. He is. If He is using the harrrd to retrain me in a better way to live — a more-Jesus-wisdom-reliant way, I’m game! Well, sometimes. My human-wisdom HATES the harrrd, demands EASY, but my human-wisdom has NEVER delivered happiness to…

when I’m relying on my human-wisdom rather than Jesus-wisdom? When I feel behind, in a hurry, intense, irritated, impatient, or disappointed when things go south, or elated when things go my way. When I’m relying on Jesus-wisdom, my eyes and thoughts are fixed on Him and His-wisdom, curious/expectant to see what He does NEXT in…

in my human-wisdom, and the human-wisdom of others, and it’s the best thing that’s happened to me since He converted me back in 1966, because I’m living and working more out of communion with Him than ever. Ahhh. But it’s harrrd to be retrained in a better way of living. My human-wisdom HATES suffering/harrrd, and…

are those relying on human-wisdom — wise in our own eyes, leaning on our own understanding, confident-we-know-what’s-best, what’s thankable and what’s not. Lords of our own lives. Christians claiming the Lordship of Jesus, but functioning like seculars, atheists, with the same human-wisdom, human-power, and therefore seed cast on thorny soil that does not reproduce, choked…

to the accomplished Christian, in business, ministry, politics, amateur sports, academia, whatever. It’s BAD news to the Christian good at a hobby. At parenting. At leadership in the Church. At whatever makes you feel good about yourself, worthy. The Gospel is BAD news to you, because it says your worthiness/somebodiness is filthy rags. The Gospel…

to human-wisdom, but who even realizes it? What’s so bad about a Christian being addicted to human-wisdom? We are not dependent on Jesus, but on our human-wisdom. Jesus is not Lord of our lives — our human-wisdom is. So we operate with human-wisdom and its human-power. No wonder the Church is so saltless and impotent…

We ended 2019 with income exceeding expenses by $890, mainly because of year-end giving and because I didn’t receive $3k of my $26.5k salary because the ministry’s bank balance was so low in the fall, and our Treasurer had to scramble to decide what bills to pay. In years past we had a larger bank…

awareness of Jesus’ sovereignty. I’m way-too self-aware now, way-too in touch with my feelings, leaving me way-too sensitive to the scary uncertainty of relying on myself, my human-wisdom, my human-power. I desperately need reminding every day, all day, of Jesus’ total sovereignty over ever detail of my life. I’m not STRONGer than I usedtabe, but…

that one day we Christians become so disillusioned with our human-wisdom that our eyes and thoughts are fixed on Jesus as we go through our day, doing NOTHing on our own, curious/expectant to see what He does NEXT, in us, others, circumstances, so we operate with Jesus-wisdom, not human-wisdom, so we operate with Jesus-power, not…