I’ve hardly ever experienced it.   Intellectually, I know that I’m supposed to follow Jesus, because He is supposedly Lord of my life, but in my typical day, it’s all about my agenda, my will, and this causes me to be intense, driven, joyless and peaceless unless things momentarily go my way, but even then, I…

is Jesus-dependency.  Whatever it takes, DaddyJesusSpirit, to get me from Dave-dependency to Jesus-dependency, that’s what I want: I offer up to you my health, my ministry, my savings, my reputation: do with them whatever is best, for me and for Your Kingdom.  I do not know what is best, though my flesh wants me to…

When I’m not curious and expectant, to see what God will do next, in my circumstances, I’m living by flesh, not by faith: functioning as an independent/orphan/adultlike, wise in my own eyes, leaning on my own understanding, and my biggest need at that moment, is fresh conviction of the sin of independence/unbelief, so I can…

When I’m struggling to believe, how do I believe better/more?  How do I get more faith for my situation?  Jesus said, “Let not your hearts be troubled: believe in God.  Believe also in Me.” Okay, but how do I believe, when I know I need to believe better, but I’m struggling?  Is faith like a…

I know I’m sane when, I hardly care about anything or anyone but Jesus.   He’s not merely one of the big deals in my life: He’s everything, and everything else, as good as it might be, simply pales in comparison to Jesus. So how do I get there, when I’m not there?   Impossible.   I cannot…