Others’ accomplishment. My accomplishment. I unwittingly worship/adore/revere that which wows me. I’m wowed by excellence in human endeavor. That is, when I’m ShepherdDave, leaning on my own understanding, wise in my own eyes, so I can captain my soul, master my fate. Flagrant independence. I’m not braggin, but confessin.
Observing the excellence of others, strokes me in the direction of independence/sheperdness/self-reliance/pride, makes me wannabe great too, so I feel good about self. This kind of idolatry weirds me and my relationships, and leaves me joyless and peaceless, unless things momentarily go my way. “God bless my agenda,” is the prayer of believers who function as independents, because independents know what’s best for self and others.
But when the Spirit lovingly convicts me of my understanding-idolatry — my independence/shepherdness/self-confidence, my dissatisfaction with Jesus and His righteousness imputed to me, I return to being DumbSheepDave, just havin fun, like a three-year-old toddler, protected from himself by his Parent. DumbSheepDave could care less about his own accomplishment/performance, or the performance of the other sheep, because he’s so wowed by his Shepherd, and by the performance of his Shepherd.
Ahhh. Tis so sweet to be a clueless sheep — asking about everything, thanking about everything: curious and expectant to see what the Shepherd will do next — which doors He’ll open and which He’ll close. Sheep dunno what’s best. But they believe their Shepherd does. Ahhh, carefree living.
–ShepherdDave, needing prayer to function like DumbSheepDave, so the pre-believers around him will be wowed and want what he has (please pray now)
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