Now, my biggest goal in life

is to be clueless.  Clueless-I-know-what’s-best.   Whyzat?   Because only the clueless-he-knows-what’s-best is content, peaceful, happy.  Impossible to be content, peaceful, happy, unless one is clueless-they-know-what’s-best.  Only the proud/confident-we-know-what’s-best are discontent, tense, suppressing our misery, want MORE than what we have, wannabe BETTER at what we do, because our lives are all about US, not Jesus.

I’ve started calling my car my “training wheels”.  When I’m all alone driving, paying attention to my thoughts, feelings, reactions, my flesh is being increasingly exposed to myself.   I’m getting to know better, the real Dave’sFlesh.  Not a pretty picture, but necessary for being grown dependent/clueless.  When I view my car as training wheels, I’m the happiest, because I see Jesus using my car to retrain me in a better way of living: clueless-I-know-what’s-best.  Impossible to be in a hurry, and be clueless-I-know-what’s-best.  Impossible to be impatient/frustrated, and clueless.  Discouraged and clueless.  Fearful and clueless.  Competitive and clueless.

My achievements/idols/addictions are OVERrated.  Training in cluelessness is UNDERrated.  In the Upside-down Kingdom of Jesus, where dependency = happiness.  And contagion to seculars.  Only the dependent/clueless enjoy everyone just as we are, and everything just as it is.

— CluefulDave, A.K.A. ShepherdDave, wise in his own eyes, leaning on his own understanding, confident-he-knows-what’s-best, except, when he’s been freshly convicted of the sin of independence/cluefulness, so he’s momentarily CluelessDave/DumbSheepDave, experiencing the contentment, peace and happiness of being dependent on his SovereignShepherdJesus, wondering if the seculars around him are noticing a difference at times

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Am I thankful for the hard-to-love

people in my life?  Or do I wish they’d go away, or wish DAVE could go away?  Or.  That Jesus would change them?  Hmm.  Maybe DAVE is the one needing change?   Maybe the reason they are in my life is primarily for MY benefit?   Hmm.  Suffering produces perseverance, then character, then hope/faith/dependency.  Hmm.  If not this suffering, what else would it take, for me to be grown more Jesus-dependent?  I can only thank Jesus for exactly how they are, and exactly how He’s placed them in my life, when the Spirit has freshly convicted me of my confidence-I-know-what’s-best, and of my unbelief in His total sovereignty over my life and theirs.  Only when freshly convicted am I able to enjoy them, just as they are, and Dave just as I am — as I struggle to love/enjoy the jerks/inconsiderates/insensitives in my life.  “Love your enemies” (jerks/opponents/bad-guys), Jesus said.   Awww, shucks.  Why did He have to go an lay down THAT law?  If it weren’t for THAT commandment, it’d be a lot easier for me to feel like a great example of a Jesus-follower.

— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, always in need of fresh conviction of the sin of independence/confidence-he-knows-what’s-best

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Thank You, Jesus, that I’m not

alone and not in charge.  Not alone, not in charge.  Not alone, not in charge.

I’ve been saying this to myself more and more and more as I go through my day, and it has been amazingly helpful, in giving me sovereignty-awareness as I face the challenges, decisions, hardships, as I go through my day.  Especially when I feel powerless, helpless, BUT IN CHARGE of my life.  I’m NOT my problem, but His problem.  Curious, expectant, to see what SovereignShepherdJesus does NEXT, in me, others, circumstances.  Is this what it means to “feed on Jesus”?  John 6:58.  Ahhh.  Jesus-dependency is LIFE, while independency is death/pressure/anxiety/misery.

–Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, championing the three awarenesses — Gospel-awareness, self-awareness, sovereignty-awareness, so the seculars around us might be wowed by the Jesus in us believers and want Him too

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Impossible to be critical,

judgmental, competitive, addicted to feeling superior, and to feel alone in facing my challenges, while experiencing sovereignty-awareness.  Whyzat?  Because I’m not in charge of me, or others.  SovereignShepherdJesus is.  Easy to enjoy others and self, just as we are, and His genius plan for us all, when I’m sovereignty-aware.  Easy to thank Him for everything, when I’m sovereignty-aware.  Easy to be curious and expectant to see what He does NEXT, in me, others, circumstances, when I’m sovereignty-aware.  Easy to be clueless-I-know-what’s-best when I’m sovereignty-aware.  Easy to experience the peace that surpasses the peace of human understanding, when I’m sovereignty-aware as I go about my daily life.  The peace of the sovereignty-unaware is circumstance-dependent — the peace of human understanding, a vastly-inferior peace.  And for us Presbyterians — what good is professing to believe in the sovereignty of God, if we’re not sovereignty-aware as we go through our day?

–Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, championing the three awarenesses — Gospel-awareness, self-awareness, sovereignty-awareness, so the seculars around us might be wowed by the Jesus in us believers and want Him too

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Ridicule-avoidance is probably 

my deepest core value, explaining more of who I am and why I do, than anything.  Constant stress/tension in my body, day and night, due to my hyper-vigilance.  All my life, this terrible, horrible, no-good, very-bad way to live has felt so normal/natural that I’ve been unaware, until lately, of the terror that never leaves me.

Impossible to be ridicule-avoidant, or tense for any other reason, unless one is confident-he-knows-what’s-best.

— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, being retrained by Jesus in cluelessness-he-knows-what’s-best

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Nothing compares with

cluelessness-I-know-what’s-best — being curious and expectant to see what You do NEXT, in me, others, circumstances.  I LOVE when Your Spirit freshly convicts me of my independence  — my feeling alone with the challenges before me, so I’m freshly aware that I’m not MY problem, but Your problem.   Ahhh, thank You, Jesus, for the peace that surpasses the understanding that’s common to independents.  So unnatural, unAmerican, unEvangelical to be clueless-I-know-what’s-best.  Ahhh.

— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, wondering if the seculars around him are noticing the difference Jesus sometimes makes in his life

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Jesus is not ENOUGH for me

in my less-sane moments, when my flesh reigns supreme, and I want MORE than what I have in Jesus.  He and His imputed worthiness are UNsatisfying to me.  I wannabe BETTER than I am.  BETTER Christian.  BETTER evangelist.  BETTER faith.  BETTER dependency on Jesus.  BETTER at being gracious to everyone — inside my head, where I judge everyone and everything, wanting to feel superior to everyone.  And I want an even-BETTER car.  And a BETTER nation, and a BETTER world.  I’m tired of being a great example of a bad example — tired of being such a loser at following Jesus, such an ungracious malcontent.  I want everyone everywhere to be wowed by my BETTER.  I do not like the way He’s made me, and I do not like the role He’s scripted for me.  I want BETTER.  I wanna read a book, or go to a seminar, that would guarantee a BETTER me.

–ShepherdDave, living in denial of his misery, except when the Spirit opens his eyes to see the real Dave’sFlesh, so he’s freshly convicted of the sin of independence/pride, so he’s momentarily DumbSheepDave, self-aware, self-accepting, others-accepting, and especially Jesus-accepting, so he’s able to enjoy everyone just as they are, and everything about Jesus’ genius plan, just as it is, needing no BETTER, so the seculars around him might experience the other-worldly humility and other-worldly love of Jesus

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Every humble person is a pacifist,

but not every pacifist is a humble person.  No humble person ridicules, wants others to lose, gets in a fight, wages war, needs to feel superior, has a competitive spirit.  Every humble person enjoys others, just as they are, and himself, just as s/he is, not just externally, but also internally, where no one can see, except the highly discerning person.  And.

Every humble NATION, minds its own business, is gracious and respectful to other nations, does not try to impose its values on others, by force or even by self-righteous persuasion.  Our hearts go out to the humble.  Only proud people/nations have enemies.  Only proud people/nations force their values on others, in disrespect, attempting to control external behavior instead of reaching the conscience through humble love.  And.

Only proud parents use force on their children to control external behavior in a battle of the wills, instead of reaching their conscience through humble love.  Only proud parents produce prodigal children.

–Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, parent of prodigals, who in recent years has become a self-righteous pacifist, opposed to the military-industrial complex of SuperpowerUSA, because Jesus taught us to turn the other cheek, remove logs from our own eyes, and did not advocate governmental solutions to societal problems, but rather spoke directly to the conscience, because the conscience is reached through humble love, while force only affects external behavior

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