Thank You, Jesus, that I dunno how

to live in Your world, but am an expert at living in Dave’s world, where everything is run by us humans, especially DAVE.  Thank You, that if I’m not rescued from myself — rescued from this prison, that I’ll go through my day feeling that my life is up to ME.  Thank You that all my knowledge from 76 years of living on Planet Earth, does not enable me to live in Your world as a Jesus-dependent, that I need Your Spirit freshly convicting me of the sin of INdependence.  PRISON BREAK.  Thank You that I’m such a great example of a bad example of a Jesus-dependent.  Thank You that grace is for INdependents whose INdependence has been revealed to them by Your Spirit, so they can CONFESS and be momentarily DEpendent, sane, at peace.  Ahhh.

— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, needy as ever for the Spirit’s fresh work, so the seculars around him might be drawn to the Jesus in him

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It feels WRONG

to be so dependent on You, Jesus, that I dunno yet where to eat lunch today, what to wear, when to do the things on my to-do list for today, which to do first.  DEpendency feels WRONG to my flesh, and to the world around me.  DEpendency is to be AVOIDED at all costs.  INdependency requires that I be confident-I-know-what’s-best, wise in my own eyes, leaning on my own understanding.  Feels RIGHT to my flesh.  Feels WRONG to be clueless-I-know-what’s-best.

— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, needing to be rescued from himself, by Jesus’ Spirit, so he might be returned — at least momentarily, to the bliss of DEpendency

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Only the desperate are needy ENOUGH to crave

reminders of His total sovereign reign over everyone and everything.  When I have EASY circumstances I am not so desperate to be reminded throughout my day, about the sovereignty of Jesus.  I don’t really need a SovereignShepherdJesus, when I have easy circumstances.  “I can handle this.”  Easy has NEVER done anything for my Jesus-dependency.

When desperate, I don’t have the luxury of feeling ALONE, up to DAVE.  That’s when I need something MORE than a good devotional life: I need MUCH-stronger medicine.  SovereignShepherdJesus reigns.  I’m not MY problem, but His.  And when I THANK Him for the harrrd in my life, I’m reminded that He’s in charge, not Dave.  That He’s executing His genius plan.  And that helps me be curious/expectant to see what He does NEXT in me, others, circumstances.  Ahhh.

— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, whose flesh wishes he weren’t so desperately needy at times

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Sooooo unnatural, for me to view

the world around me as Your world, Jesus, because it seems like OUR world — the world of us humans, where things are up to US, and in particular, the world of DAVE, where things are UP TO ME, to make good decisions, avoid regret, or worse — humiliation.  Constant pressure.  Except when Your Spirit freshly convicts me of the sin of unbelief in Your total sovereignty over everyone and everything, so I momentarily relax, and am curious/expectant to see what You do NEXT, in me, others, circumstances.  Ahhh.  So thankful that in Heaven, relief won’t be momentary, but 24/7.

— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, needing gobsa fresh conviction throughout his day, so the seculars around him might actually want something he has, at times

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Jesus, I want to live in Your world,

where I’m a spectator — an enjoyer of everyone just as we are and everything just as it is, not a gladiator like I am in Dave’s world — with the pressure to be better, do better, believe better, achieve, make a difference, establish my own worthiness, feel superior to others.  When I’m living in Your world, I experience an other-worldly peace that is worth selling all to get.  I never live in Your world, except when Your Spirit freshly convicts me of the sin of INdependence/pride/worldliness/confidence-I-know-what’s-best.  Ahhh.  I look forward to Heaven when I’ll live in Your world 24/7, and never again live under The Curse where I care about my own worthiness, feel alone, feel pressure to excel, as though my life is UP TO DAVE.

— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, promoting Gospel-awareness, self-awareness, and sovereignty-awareness to Christians, especially DAVE, that we might actually have something seculars want

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Thank You for the bliss of

cluelessness-I-know-what’s-best, another way of describing dependency on You instead of me, that comes from fresh conviction of sin — especially the sin of INdependence.  Thank You that fresh conviction enables me to CONFESS and be freshly dead to my flesh and its confidence-it-knows-what’s-best.  Ahhh.

— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, whose biggest need every day all day, is training in cluelessness, that the seculars around him might actually want something he has

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I work harrrd at being a wonderful person.

Why?  I want others to believe I’m wonderful and DAVE wants to believe it too.  But I’m coming to see that it’s not what I DO that reveals how wonderful or horrible I am, but rather what I THINK.  And nobody knows that but Dave.  And Jesus.  Truth is, I’m NOT a wonderful person.  Oh I’ve loved and served many, many people, who are convinced I’m wonderful, because I’m good at being credible, believable.  And while I DO care for others, deeply, and enjoy them, there’s a dark side to my loving/serving them well, that’s rooted in my wounds from childhood that made me feel rejected, worthless, and my subsequent, unconscious strategy to be wonderful to prove to myself and others, that I’m not worthless.

As I’m more aware of the real Dave’sFlesh, I dowannabe working so harrrd to be something I am not.  All my life, I’ve tried to be something I’m not, and becoming a Christian at age 24, just exacerbated the problem.  Since then, I’ve tried even harrrrder to be wonderful — a wonderful Christian.  The bar is higher, the pressures greater.  So it’s a relief to come out of the closet today about who my flesh really is.  I’d like to work less hard at being wonderful, but I’ve been at this for so long, that I’m not even sure where to begin, to change, or even HOW to be different than I am.  Maybe just being more aware of my dark side of why I serve others, will help.  I hope so.

— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, promoting Gospel-awareness, self-awareness, and sovereignty-awareness, that Christians, including DAVE, might have integrity/authenticity with seculars, so we’re not stumbling blocks to them considering/embracing Jesus, and so Christians with unusual self-awareness might feel less lonely — have believing friends to whom they can relate

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The nicest thing Jesus ever does for me

is to EXPOSE my unbelief to me, especially my unbelief in His sovereign reign over every detail of every life.  EXPOSE my INdependency to me — my feeling ALONE, UP TO DAVE.  Ahhhh, so relieving to CONFESS my unbelief.  The pressure I was feeling EVAPORATES.  Jack Miller once told his wife Rose Marie that the starting place for faith, is conviction of sin.  Such a helpful concept to me ever since I heard that, many years ago.  So when I feel stuck, distant from Jesus, it’s so helpful to ask for the Spirit afresh, sometimes claiming the promise in Luke 11, that if we ask for the Spirit, He will give us the Spirit.  I’ve found it helpful to surrender the timetable, when the prayer is answered.

— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, thankful afresh for the convicting work of Jesus’ Spirit, wondering if the seculars around him are noticing the difference at times

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