Jesus, I want to live in Your world,

where I’m a spectator — an enjoyer of everyone just as we are and everything just as it is, not a gladiator like I am in Dave’s world — with the pressure to be better, do better, believe better, achieve, make a difference, establish my own worthiness, feel superior to others.  When I’m living in Your world, I experience an other-worldly peace that is worth selling all to get.  I never live in Your world, except when Your Spirit freshly convicts me of the sin of INdependence/pride/worldliness/confidence-I-know-what’s-best.  Ahhh.  I look forward to Heaven when I’ll live in Your world 24/7, and never again live under The Curse where I care about my own worthiness, feel alone, feel pressure to excel, as though my life is UP TO DAVE.

— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, promoting Gospel-awareness, self-awareness, and sovereignty-awareness to Christians, especially DAVE, that we might actually have something seculars want

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When you are facing scary or overwhelming

circumstances, go to 2 Chronicles 20:1-24.  Read the passage.  I have the following sentences from this passage, underlined in my Bible.  “For we have no power to face this vast army attacking us.  We do not know what to do, but our eyes are upon You.”  And later, “Don’t be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army.  For the battle is not yours, but God’s.”  And later, “Stand still and see the deliverance the Lord will give you.”

No matter how harrrrd and how impossible and how scary your circumstances SEEM, and no matter how dysfunctional you are, you are not YOUR problem, but you are HIS problem.  This passage is for YOU.  And me.

Helps me so much to say over and over, “Thank You, Daddy, thank You, Jesus, thank You, Holy Spirit,” reminding me of His totally-sovereign reign over everything in my life.  The Israelites under Jehoshaphat THANKed God in the face of scary.

— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships

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Thank You for the bliss of

cluelessness-I-know-what’s-best, another way of describing dependency on You instead of me, that comes from fresh conviction of sin — especially the sin of INdependence.  Thank You that fresh conviction enables me to CONFESS and be freshly dead to my flesh and its confidence-it-knows-what’s-best.  Ahhh.

— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, whose biggest need every day all day, is training in cluelessness, that the seculars around him might actually want something he has

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I work harrrd at being a wonderful person.

Why?  I want others to believe I’m wonderful and DAVE wants to believe it too.  But I’m coming to see that it’s not what I DO that reveals how wonderful or horrible I am, but rather what I THINK.  And nobody knows that but Dave.  And Jesus.  Truth is, I’m NOT a wonderful person.  Oh I’ve loved and served many, many people, who are convinced I’m wonderful, because I’m good at being credible, believable.  And while I DO care for others, deeply, and enjoy them, there’s a dark side to my loving/serving them well, that’s rooted in my wounds from childhood that made me feel rejected, worthless, and my subsequent, unconscious strategy to be wonderful to prove to myself and others, that I’m not worthless.

As I’m more aware of the real Dave’sFlesh, I dowannabe working so harrrd to be something I am not.  All my life, I’ve tried to be something I’m not, and becoming a Christian at age 24, just exacerbated the problem.  Since then, I’ve tried even harrrrder to be wonderful — a wonderful Christian.  The bar is higher, the pressures greater.  So it’s a relief to come out of the closet today about who my flesh really is.  I’d like to work less hard at being wonderful, but I’ve been at this for so long, that I’m not even sure where to begin, to change, or even HOW to be different than I am.  Maybe just being more aware of my dark side of why I serve others, will help.  I hope so.

— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, promoting Gospel-awareness, self-awareness, and sovereignty-awareness, that Christians, including DAVE, might have integrity/authenticity with seculars, so we’re not stumbling blocks to them considering/embracing Jesus, and so Christians with unusual self-awareness might feel less lonely — have believing friends to whom they can relate

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Why do you need to be more self-aware?

Because you live in denial of how little you really believe in the sovereignty of Jesus.  How do I know that?  Because you suppress your feelings of fear, frustration, discouragement, boredom.  And that’s why you feel ALONE so much of the time: UP TO YOU.  Your biggest need, all day, every day, is to CONFESS your unbelief in the sovereignty of Jesus, so you can have fresh faith to believe, rest, trust, and experience the other-worldly peace for someone in your circumstances.  And if, after confessing, if you still struggle to believe, read Scripture on the sovereignty, providence, of God, or listen to sermons on the subject at sermonaudio.com.  You IMAGINE yourself a believer in the sovereignty of Jesus, but you are a functioning unbeliever, with no advantage over an atheist in the way you go through your day.  UP TO YOU.  In charge of your life and circumstances.  Without the benefit of Jesus.  Alone.

— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, preaching to himself, that he might have something the seculars around him actually want

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The nicest thing Jesus ever does for me

is to EXPOSE my unbelief to me, especially my unbelief in His sovereign reign over every detail of every life.  EXPOSE my INdependency to me — my feeling ALONE, UP TO DAVE.  Ahhhh, so relieving to CONFESS my unbelief.  The pressure I was feeling EVAPORATES.  Jack Miller once told his wife Rose Marie that the starting place for faith, is conviction of sin.  Such a helpful concept to me ever since I heard that, many years ago.  So when I feel stuck, distant from Jesus, it’s so helpful to ask for the Spirit afresh, sometimes claiming the promise in Luke 11, that if we ask for the Spirit, He will give us the Spirit.  I’ve found it helpful to surrender the timetable, when the prayer is answered.

— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, thankful afresh for the convicting work of Jesus’ Spirit, wondering if the seculars around him are noticing the difference at times

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I feel entitled to an easier life.

As I compare myself to others, they seem to have easier lives.  They can eat whatever they want, go wherever they want, breath whatever they want, sleep soundly through the night, don’t need to do all the extracurricular health regimens I need to do, and they feel normal all the time.  They don’t experience the suffering/harrrd that I face every day.  Why can’t I be LIKE THEM?

If I had an easIER life, would I give a hoot about Jesus, and His imputed worthiness?  An easIER life might work for others, but I don’t think it would work for me, because I’m just not naturally dependent on Jesus.  I need harrrrd to motivate me to run to Jesus, to embrace the suffering that leads to perseverance, that leads to character, that leads to hope/faith/dependency.  My biggest need is yet-more Jesus-dependency, the pearl of great price, worth selling all to get.  But my flesh HATES the suffering necessary to get me there.  My flesh wants painless sanctification, wants EASY sanctification.

— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, wanting an easier way, except when freshly convicted of the sin of INdependence/confidence-he-knows-what’s-best

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You won’t experience the benefit of Jesus,

unless you’re living in His world, enjoying Him and His creation and His management of everything and everyone, including YOU, just as you are.  When I live in Dave’s world, I’m oppressed, intense, driven to excellence, consumed with proving myself worthy and avoiding failure/humiliation.  Exhausting.

But when I live in Jesus’ world I experience an other-worldly peace that has nothing to do with my circumstances, because I’m a not a gladiator on the field of battle like in Dave’s world, but rather a SPECTATOR sitting in the bleachers, enjoying everything, without a dog in the hunt, clueless-about-what’s-best-for-anyone, curious and expectant to see what Jesus does NEXT, in me, others, circumstances.  Ahhh, Jesus-dependency.

The only problem is, I’m powerless to move from Dave’s world, back to Jesus’ world.  Only when the Spirit opens my eyes to see my sin of INdependence.  Thank You, Jesus, for those times!  And thank You for the other times, that make me miserable enough to want You and Your world.

— Dave McCarty, GospelFriendships, havin more fun than ever, sometimes
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