Entries by WeakDave

Agendaless Living

I’ve hardly ever experienced it.   Intellectually, I know that I’m supposed to follow Jesus, because He is supposedly Lord of my life, but in my typical day, it’s all about my agenda, my will, and this causes me to be intense, driven, joyless and peaceless unless things momentarily go my way, but even then, I […]

What I Want More Than Anything in the World

is Jesus-dependency.  Whatever it takes, DaddyJesusSpirit, to get me from Dave-dependency to Jesus-dependency, that’s what I want: I offer up to you my health, my ministry, my savings, my reputation: do with them whatever is best, for me and for Your Kingdom.  I do not know what is best, though my flesh wants me to […]

Not curious and expectant

When I’m not curious and expectant, to see what God will do next, in my circumstances, I’m living by flesh, not by faith: functioning as an independent/orphan/adultlike, wise in my own eyes, leaning on my own understanding, and my biggest need at that moment, is fresh conviction of the sin of independence/unbelief, so I can […]

God-thing in Chile

Chip Jones is a blue-collar-kinda-guy World Harvest Missionary I spent a lot of time mentoring while he and wife Meredith were raising support several years ago.  Unlikely candidate to be a missionary.  Not a seminary grad.   Not even a college grad. But they were sponges for being trained in Jesus-dependency, and they have been modeling […]

The Source of Discouragement

I can never remember a time when I was discouraged, that I wasn’t also concerned about my own righteousness/performance/reputation/somebodiness: my passion to feel good about myself based on my performance. Same is true for every time I’ve been fearful, or frustrated/angry. My unhappiness, lack of joy/peace, always has to do with me and my performance, […]

Not My Will Be Done, But Yours!

When I’m struggling to believe, how do I believe better/more?  How do I get more faith for my situation?  Jesus said, “Let not your hearts be troubled: believe in God.  Believe also in Me.” Okay, but how do I believe, when I know I need to believe better, but I’m struggling?  Is faith like a […]

Sanity!

I know I’m sane when, I hardly care about anything or anyone but Jesus.   He’s not merely one of the big deals in my life: He’s everything, and everything else, as good as it might be, simply pales in comparison to Jesus. So how do I get there, when I’m not there?   Impossible.   I cannot […]