Entries by WeakDave

I feel entitled to an easier life.

As I compare myself to others, they seem to have easier lives.  They can eat whatever they want, go wherever they want, breath whatever they want, sleep soundly through the night, don’t need to do all the extracurricular health regimens I need to do, and they feel normal all the time.  They don’t experience the […]

You won’t experience the benefit of Jesus,

unless you’re living in His world, enjoying Him and His creation and His management of everything and everyone, including YOU, just as you are.  When I live in Dave’s world, I’m oppressed, intense, driven to excellence, consumed with proving myself worthy and avoiding failure/humiliation.  Exhausting. But when I live in Jesus’ world I experience an […]

I am PettyDave.

I’m shocked.  I just never saw it previously.  I should change my email address to pettydave@sent.com.  I am consumed with petty issues/concerns all day long, every day, especially when I’m all alone, with no audio input, just silence.  Or out in public by myself, observing others.  Jesus has been EXPOSING my flesh to me.  My […]

My struggle to understand Scripture

only bothers, irritates, discourages me, when I’m proud/confident-I-know-what’s-best/INdependent/worldly.  Understanding-idolatry has been a human problem, and an unconfessed sin, since the Garden.  My flesh HATES me not understanding Scripture perfectly, HATES me feeling less-than, inadequate, weak, needy, and LOVES me feeling strong, confident, LOVES easy, HATES harrrd, LOVES when I get my way, reach my goal, […]

You can have an EASY life.

But there’s only one place to FIND easy: in dependence on Jesus.  INdependence, feeling alone, UP TO ME, is harrrrd, because the pressure to achieve — perform with excellence, prove yourself worthy, never ceases.  Miserable existence. Big difference between EASY circumstances, and an EASY life.  I ain’t promisin EASY circumstances.  As a human you’ve bought […]

I’m not alone, I’m not alone…

Helps me so much to be reminded that I’m not alone, that Jesus is living His life through me, in total control of every detail, so I can relax and be curious/expectant to see what He does NEXT, in me, others, circumstances.  Ahhh.  Pressure’s off.  But I can’t seem to graduate from needing to be […]

I’ve been living a double life

since age 24, when Jesus drew me to Himself.  But I never saw my double life til now.  I’ve lived in two different worlds: Jesus’ world, and Dave’s world.  When I live in Jesus’ world, I’m in awe of Him and His worthiness as seen in creation, and His genius plan for everyone and everything. […]

Impossible to really KNOW Jesus,

unless you really KNOW yourself.  Self-awareness is crucial to really knowing Jesus.  He who has a present sense of having been forgiven only a little, presently KNOWS Jesus only a little, presently KNOWS himself only a little, presently loves Jesus only a little, presently loves himself only a little, presently loves others only a little, […]