Entries by WeakDave

Jesus only seems Lord of my life when

I have no agenda of my own — except being curious and expectant to see what He does NEXT, in me, others, circumstances.  When I have no agenda of my own I dunno what’s best for me or others, and I’m just an observer without judgment or agenda, instead of a performer, prove-er, competitor.  Having […]

I keep forgetting

that Jesus is in charge of my life, so I don’t have to be, so I don’t need to feel ALONE, feel pressure, feel behind.  Truth is, I’m NEVER behind, always right on His schedule.  But.  Not on the schedule of my human-wisdom.  So while my human-wisdom doesn’t believe it, my circumstances are PERFECT for […]

I only dread the future

when I’m human-wisdom-reliant, confident-I-know-what’s-best, wise in my own eyes, leaning on my own understanding.  Eyes on the waves of my circumstances, instead of Jesus.  So whadda I do when I realize I’m dreading?  CONFESS, hopefully.  Confession delivers happiness, relief.  Trying harder to believe better, do better, delivers misery, because the focus is on ME and […]

The news nourishes my human-wisdom,

causing me to feel ALONE and in CHARGE of my life.  The news is not Jesus-centric, but human-wisdom-centric, so the news is dangerous to my Jesus-dependency, my happiness.  The news undermines the peace and joy that OUGHTABE mine in Jesus.  So I can only take news in small doses, together with LARGE doses of being […]

Yes, my life is extraordinarily harrrd,

but so WHAT?  I am not MY problem, but Jesus’ problem.  I’m not in charge.  He is.  If He is using the harrrd to retrain me in a better way to live — a more-Jesus-wisdom-reliant way, I’m game!  Well, sometimes. My human-wisdom HATES the harrrd, demands EASY, but my human-wisdom has NEVER delivered happiness to […]

No more decisions, or agenda.

Wow, my body is so-much-more relaxed when I’m looking to Jesus for direction/agenda/decisions on every tiny detail of my life and ministry.  I’ve been praying for decades to be able to live and work out of communion with Jesus, and it’s been happening more than ever in my life lately.  Wow.  Especially when I’m driving […]

How do I tell

when I’m relying on my human-wisdom rather than Jesus-wisdom?  When I feel behind, in a hurry, intense, irritated, impatient, or disappointed when things go south, or elated when things go my way. When I’m relying on Jesus-wisdom, my eyes and thoughts are fixed on Him and His-wisdom, curious/expectant to see what He does NEXT in […]

Jesus is undermining my trust

in my human-wisdom, and the human-wisdom of others, and it’s the best thing that’s happened to me since He converted me back in 1966, because I’m living and working more out of communion with Him than ever.  Ahhh.  But it’s harrrd to be retrained in a better way of living.  My human-wisdom HATES suffering/harrrd, and […]