Entries by WeakDave

I work harrrd at being a wonderful person.

Why?  I want others to believe I’m wonderful and DAVE wants to believe it too.  But I’m coming to see that it’s not what I DO that reveals how wonderful or horrible I am, but rather what I THINK.  And nobody knows that but Dave.  And Jesus.  Truth is, I’m NOT a wonderful person.  Oh […]

Why do you need to be more self-aware?

Because you live in denial of how little you really believe in the sovereignty of Jesus.  How do I know that?  Because you suppress your feelings of fear, frustration, discouragement, boredom.  And that’s why you feel ALONE so much of the time: UP TO YOU.  Your biggest need, all day, every day, is to CONFESS […]

The nicest thing Jesus ever does for me

is to EXPOSE my unbelief to me, especially my unbelief in His sovereign reign over every detail of every life.  EXPOSE my INdependency to me — my feeling ALONE, UP TO DAVE.  Ahhhh, so relieving to CONFESS my unbelief.  The pressure I was feeling EVAPORATES.  Jack Miller once told his wife Rose Marie that the […]

I feel entitled to an easier life.

As I compare myself to others, they seem to have easier lives.  They can eat whatever they want, go wherever they want, breath whatever they want, sleep soundly through the night, don’t need to do all the extracurricular health regimens I need to do, and they feel normal all the time.  They don’t experience the […]

You won’t experience the benefit of Jesus,

unless you’re living in His world, enjoying Him and His creation and His management of everything and everyone, including YOU, just as you are.  When I live in Dave’s world, I’m oppressed, intense, driven to excellence, consumed with proving myself worthy and avoiding failure/humiliation.  Exhausting. But when I live in Jesus’ world I experience an […]

I am PettyDave.

I’m shocked.  I just never saw it previously.  I should change my email address to pettydave@sent.com.  I am consumed with petty issues/concerns all day long, every day, especially when I’m all alone, with no audio input, just silence.  Or out in public by myself, observing others.  Jesus has been EXPOSING my flesh to me.  My […]

My struggle to understand Scripture

only bothers, irritates, discourages me, when I’m proud/confident-I-know-what’s-best/INdependent/worldly.  Understanding-idolatry has been a human problem, and an unconfessed sin, since the Garden.  My flesh HATES me not understanding Scripture perfectly, HATES me feeling less-than, inadequate, weak, needy, and LOVES me feeling strong, confident, LOVES easy, HATES harrrd, LOVES when I get my way, reach my goal, […]

You can have an EASY life.

But there’s only one place to FIND easy: in dependence on Jesus.  INdependence, feeling alone, UP TO ME, is harrrrd, because the pressure to achieve — perform with excellence, prove yourself worthy, never ceases.  Miserable existence. Big difference between EASY circumstances, and an EASY life.  I ain’t promisin EASY circumstances.  As a human you’ve bought […]